@ChrisCooper wrote:
Two things I've noticed about OP. First, she only responds to those who agitate her. She has yet to acknowledge anyone who provided help, or even stood up for her. She is definitely baiting certain members for an argument.
I'm writing in a bit of shock from so many of the things that have been said, so please pardon me if I'm making any mental errors from memory.
You're right, CC, that I haven't always acknowledged those who've defended me. I'm not sure why I have or haven't, but can say that I've genuinely appreciated it. Some of those who've done so from past threads have been:
JASF (although, I did thank her in the "cheating" thread)
Coffee Queen
spicy1
and also ceasesmith
There may be others that I'm forgetting and I'll take a bit of time here to just say that I appreciate the courage you must have had to speak up and say something when you thought something was wrong. I may not have personally thanked you all, but I know when I read through your comments from past threads that it felt reassuring and helped reduce some of the stress I felt.
Two things to keep in mind:
i.) When you're in pain, you're not always thinking of the good things others have done, but sometimes very focused on the negative. It wasn't on my mind at the time, but you're correct that I should have been vocally thankful to others for their courage.
ii.) I actually stop reading threads or, at least, many posters who've shown verbal abuse/insult towards me, so there are many threads where I've decried the behavior of others only to immediately leave for my own peace of mind. That's what words can do to a person. I haven't returned to many of those threads. So it's possible some people may have stood up against this abuse that I'm not aware of. I shall read over those threads over the next week or two to get a sense of what happened in them.
That's actually an area that I think could be partially my fault. I try to avoid confrontation usually, but in doing so, I may have abandoned a conversation where others had defended me that I'm not aware of and should have given proper thanks to.
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Second, she will undermine herself to further inflame a thread. In the "cheating" thread, her starting premise was that 2 bites was too little and cheated the client. Then halfway through, she slips in that she submitted a report in which she didn't even eat the burger, she gave it to her father and used his comments for her report [
www.mysteryshopforum.com]. I'm sure that tidbit was just an effort to keep the diatribe going and rile people up since what she did was completely unacceptable. She did something similar in other threads, but I didn't bother to call her on it at the time.
I was shocked by this, CC. I can tell you from the bottom of my heart that I absolutely did not "undermine" myself to inflame a thread! That was genuinely offensive, b/c I was letting LisaSTL know in that situation that I myself had made some mistakes in the past that were unintentional and was not saying that I was "perfect" or anything like that. I'm very surprised you took it that way. Since you mentioned thinking that I did this another time, I wouldn't mind you letting me know where it was? I'm genuinely shocked by that and that you (or anyone) would have conceived of that. I assure you, again, that no such intentions were had on my part.
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This is the online equivalent of Munchausen syndrome--false claims of illness while performing behavior that induces the symptoms of the illness. If you decide not to toggle her, try agreeing with her all the time. When she cannot provoke a fight, she'll leave.
Chris, this is a thing that I've been beyond curious about and frustrated about.
When people say that I'm trying to provoke a fight, what exact threads/posts/comments are you guys talking about? I've literally thought 100% the opposite, as I've always kept to myself, given kind remarks to people in their own threads, given some suggestions here and there on mystery shopping topics, made some goofy responses, etc. I have literally never attacked another forum member, nor tried to instigate anything. If one looks at my posting history (again, I really do wish people would take up that challenge, b/c I'm totally baffled by this one line that I'm a provoker, as I could point to examples of the opposite, where I've tried to be a peacemaker and tried to affirm both sides of a complicated discussion), I think you'll see the opposite and nothing of the sort.
If you or anyone would like, I could literally post my comments (and links to them here) that show I've been a peacemaker in past threads. The only time where I've gotten upset has been when I've been falsely accused of things and been mocked or otherwise insulted. The primary instances being:
---being accused of writing a book
---being called a troll
---being called a food blogger (I do think MSNinja was partially joking much of the time and I can appreciate his/her humor, but I'd pointed out in the past that it bothered me)
---recent LisaSTL/bgriffin incident*****
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---indirectly put down for my intelligence (implying that I had the intelligence of a 3rd grader)
---"new" forum member accounts that put me down*** (This one, admittedly, I could have been totally paranoid about, as there's no real proof of intent. I just thought it was odd that a brand new member would come out and put me down without contributing anything elsewhere. My thought was an existing forum member created those accounts to mess with me, but I am completely fine if this is seen as just pure speculation and paranoia. I'm only relaying how I felt and not saying I was justified in it.)
---general rudeness
---comments that mischaracterized my views and then admonished me for holding those views (when I didn't)
---the entire 5 Guys thread devoted to mocking me
The line "-------------" separates instances where I verbally "fought back" against things said unfairly of and rudely to me. It's only in the top half that I ever had gotten angry. The instances in the bottom half were things that took place that I never said anything about and tried to ignore (with the 5G incident only mentioned here).
But if you notice, the ONLY instances where I got upset were ALL cases where I was defending myself. I had never provoked anyone, insulted anyone, or tried to cause any drama. I would challenge anyone to look into those threads and find any instance where I was the provocateur. They don't exist.
*****I mentioned to CQ and JASF above (indirectly with allusions) that the LisaSTL/bg incident where I got upset with them was something that I think I overreacted to and was at fault for mostly. I had been meaning to apologize for and reconcile that incident once I was emotionally strong enough.
Other than that single incident, I would (nicely) challenge anyone to find a single instance where I tried to provoke others or was rude and insulting to others. I don't mean this in a prideful way, but more in defense of myself and out of being genuinely baffled: It doesn't exist.
What HAS happened, I think (this is, admittedly, speculation on my part), is that some aggressive (and in all honesty, I think possibly paranoid or conspiracy-minded - something to that affect) posters have vociferously labeled me publicly a certain way and without my responding to those charges (I chose the "higher ground" and ignored them in the past) it's caught on and seeped into some people's thinking that I'm some sort of instigator.
That's why I keep asking people to give me examples of this and to look back at my post history and read for yourselves. There's literally nothing there that fits the accusations or perceptions. I don't mean to pick on MSNinja, because I like some of his/her humor while genuinely feeling MSN is also a provocateur and crosses the line at times, but if someone were to be called a "troll" or "trouble-maker" I would have thought MSNinja would be one of them. There, you have evidence of it. In my case, I'm both shocked by and offended that this label has been attached to me when there's no evidence of it - only the perception.
Edited 4 time(s). Last edit at 07/02/2017 06:43AM by shoptastic.